Normally, I point out stupid things that I see around me, and poke fun at them.
Today, in the spirit of the season, I will point the looking glass inward, and poke fun at the things that I do that at times have even caused me to stop and ask.. "WTF?"
Let's start with the easy ones:
I profess to love my wife dearly, yet it seems that I've done nothing so much as bitch about each and every little thing that she does to piss me off..
Why do I do this? Why on this public blog? Why not in some personal journal instead of out here for anyone and everyone to read?
I don't know. I really don't.
I do know that because of her, I have become the man that I am today, and I'm getting better!
It's because of her love and devotion that my kids have a solid home to live in, and a safe and secure environment that they can grow up happy and carefree.
Because of her, I can see myself as a better father and husband. I even think there are times when I can picture, like a blur out of the corner of my eye, the man I could become. The solid and stable father figure everyone wishes for. That happy, jovial, kind, generous and giving person who never asks for anything in return but the love of his family.
Yes, I hope to aspire to this, and because of her, I honestly think that it's an achieveable reality.
How about my need to read about each and every person I can find that piques my interest?
Why do I do this? What's in it for me?
I tend to HATE gossip, and for that reason, I also tend to distain "reality TV" shows as well.
However, what was I doing last night? Watching Biggest Loser on TV.
If my wife turns on one of her shows, do I leave the room?
Yes, there have been times. However, more often than not I sit and watch the show with her.
I don't know. I don't know what my craving is for voraciously reading things in other blogs. I don't know why I'll be willing to waste an hour of my time watching a choreographed show that claims it's "reality". All I know is that even though I can't personally stand it, I'll deal with it because something in what I'm reading or watching has grabbed my attention at some point, and I wait to see if it's going to happen again.
With most of the blogs I read, this happens quite often, and I comment about them.
With the shows I've watched, it doesn't happen as much, but I still will try to see if something interesting will grab my attention again.
I don't know how to break that with the TV watching, but if I could, I don't know if I would.
I'm one of those who loves to watch people. I could sit at a table in a restaurant, and do nothing but drink a soda and watch the various people for hours on end. I used to make weird assessments about some of the folks I'd been watching as well. This used to upset my wife, because I was making assumptions about someone without knowing who they were. Now there were times that I was right, and she'd still point out that it was a guess, but nothing factual. Looking back, I'd have to agree. However, it is something that I've always done. Maybe I picked it up from my dad. He does the same thing in large groups. If he's not actively talking with someone, his eyes are scanning the crowd, taking in the sights, sounds, and actions going on around him.
I'm a voracious reader. There have been times where I'd waste a whole day doing nothing but reading on a book until I was able to put the finished novel down. I'd eat a little, drink a bit, take the occasional bathroom break (these breaks don't mean that the book was put down, however!), but I'd read, and read, and read until either the words got all blurry, or the book was done.
I've said before that I know there are things that need done around the house. So what's so important about a book that I can't put it down long enough to fold some laundry, or clean up some dishes?
Why do I insist on putting off yardwork? Why isn't the trim done on the inside of my house? How much longer until the windows that I've installed are COMPLETELY done?
I don't know. Maybe once I've gotten my game fix over, or read this last chapter, or seen this one show...
You know where I'm headed here, don't you?
Why do I insist on blogging? What's the attraction for me?
I think mainly for me the attraction is the chance to write, and have someone be interested in what I say.
Can I help that I'm an attention whore?
But I can enjoy it!
That's my main draw.
I love reading some blogs, and getting ideas for how to write, and narrarate, and put things into my own perspective.
Yeah, it hurts sometimes when folks get serious with me, and give comments that tend to cut me down.
But I really don't think that it's going to slow me down any. As long as I'm writing what's in my heart, and saying things that are my personal perspective I don't really care who reads it. All you're doing by reading my blog is actually seeing the world through my eyes.
Yeah, it's nothing fancy. There's really no bells or whistles, or shiny flashing things. It's just what I see, what I have experienced, and how I've come to relate to it.
Anyway, that's my WTF Wednesday this week.
You all have a GREAT Thanksgiving tomorrow, and I'll read up and talk with you all on Friday!