Tuesday, February 21, 2012


Well, I'm just about to go postal, and it's barely into the week. What's wrong with me?

Yesterday, I had some work to do, so I took the kids with me, and tried to get it done. Let's just leave out the fact that I forgot to bring some of the needed materials with me, which required yet another trip back to the house in order to get the stuff I needed, and let's also forget that the shop that I've been using is also being used by someone else, and I have to share the space, ok?

So once my claustrophobic chore was done yesterday, I took the kids home went home myself. Problem is that I get into thinking that my work is done, and the girlfriend has other ideas. She isn't feeling good, so time requirements get cut a bit shorter as I want to be able to care and help her as well as take care of things around the house and my job.

Then I've got some issues with scheduling. I have classes three days a week, and a job that I can schedule around the class time, but very time-intensive when they are needed. I have a very large job looming on the horizon right now, and I'm trying to wrap my head around the project, while keeping afloat in class and the regular day-to-day grind. Plus, I have gotten an added install to do, and it's keeping me on my feet for the moment.

I'm frazzled. I have homework and studies to do, yet I want time to unwind from work and classes. Somehow, I don't feel like I can, and be true to my work and my classes. Yet my greatest issue right now is my drive to escape, and throw any cares into a pile to sort out "later". Where does this kind of thinking come from? What is my focus? Where is the objective for this goal at?

I need to find a happy medium, and see how I can balance it all out. I need to prioritize everything, and see how I can make it all fit. I need to set personal boundaries, and then stick to it. I also need to set some personal time into it all, and let the body and brain unwind.

While I'm at it, I need to see about adding a couple of extra hours into my day. Anyone have some to spare?

Monday, February 6, 2012


I'm getting tired of all these stinking self-help commercials that are going on anymore.

I mean, come on! Really?

Let's see. We've got some skinny little thing that goes on television to tell millions of viewers how she lost 20 pounds, and look how much better she is! To be honest, if the camera angle was different, I'm sure you wouldn't be able to tell the change, but that might also be my skepticism showing..

Then there are those pill ads saying that all you need to do is take a pill three times a day and keep eating as you always do, and the pounds will just melt away. I call bullshit on this one too. I'm sure I didn't get to be happy and "fluffy" as Gabriel Iglesias calls it just by eating. I also gained weight by sitting on my ass instead of exercising. I also think that my addiction to fast food instead of home-cooked meals would have something to do it as well. Next, define "normal" for me. "Normal" for someone overweight might be two extra-value meals complete with all the trimmings. Yet it might mean a glass of water, some salad and a granola bar for someone else. Who exactly determines what is "normal" when you are advertising something?

Trying to push pharmeceutical drugs on television are starting to bother me, too. Birth control? We've got a new pill/contraceptive/insert for that. Depressed? We've got pills for that. I tend to disagree with the idea that if it's new, it's got to be something better than the tried-and-true methods. I don't fear new things, I just prefer more thorough testing and research being done for drugs testing instead of trying to push things out on the market as soon as possible. However, as my macabre humor noticed, if you have the side effect of death for your antidepressant, there's an upside there. If you die, then you don't have to deal with being depressed, so that's a win in my book.

How lazy have we become as consumers? We can now sit, watch TV, and lose weight, feel good about it, and eat the same junk we always have and not be concerned about four self-desructive behavior. Maybe if we were all able to hire personal apologists for our actions we'd be better off.

The only way it would be better would be if the apologist came in pill form..