Exhastion

I'm tired.

Beat.

I can hardly keep my eyes open to type this, and my arms feel like lead.

I'm grabbing up as much overtime as my job allows, and it's really starting to take it's toll on me. The commute isn't bad, but when you've got an hour to drive to work, plus an hour back, and you add in the 16-ish hours of work... It really adds up, and leaves little time for sleep or eating.

I'm trying to keep myself busy. I'm trying not to think. I'm trying to fill my time up so much that I won't get started on what's happening, and eventually it'll just happen, I'll keep working, and it'll be over. 'Nuff said, right?

Wrong.

I'm trying to kid myself, but even with all of this work, I still can't get over the pain, the hurt, the feelings of betrayal, the anger, and depression.

I just don't know if I'll ever get over this. I don't know if I really want to, either.

But the fact is that if I don't start getting some better sleep and taking better care of myself, they'll be scraping up what's left of me out of some wreck on the interstate. I can't afford to do that to my kids.

So, less overtime, less of a paycheck, and more time to think about my screwed up life in general.

You win some, you lose some....

A Personal Question...

Have you ever had one of those days where you'd really want to reach out and seriously SLAP the person you're dealing with in order to wake them up to reality?

Yeah. I've been dealing a LOT with anger issues lately..

Maybe it's male PMS kicking in, and I haven't noticed??

Or is it that my tolerance level for idiocy has just about reached it's max, and I'm brimming with angst and frustration?

I don't know.

All I do know is that there have been so many times lately that I've just wanted to reach out and bash someone's eyes out of their skull because of their idiotic views about things..

I mean, just because you CAN do something, does that mean that you NEED to do it?

No.

Plain and simply, NO.

Think about me this week, and hopefully I'll have the strength to battle on, and be (semi) sane to post again next week!

See you all later!